Saturday, July 15, 2006
This week's Sunday Scribblings post about baggage comes comes very times as I have a grand total of 25 days left in Singapore, and I just awoke from a very disturbing dream and told me that I have there are unresolved issues burried in my life - baggage.
My new Samsonite luggages sit outside in the living room because I have no storage space and because I really should start a trial run of packing so I know how much I can bring to London with me and what I have to leave behind. My CDs, of course, will stay here at home and I'll only carry my tunes around in my iPod. I am exceedingly happy that the airline has okayed my request for excess baggage allowance free, which means that instead of the usual allocation of 20 kilos, I'll get another 10. Comes in very handy when you'll be away for an extended period of time. Even so, I think I'll get my parents to send me some items like some books and my wool coats because I'm sure I'll use up all 30 kilos.
I hope to be able to do some travelling when I'm in the UK. To other parts of the UK perhaps? Or maybe to other European countries. I've never been to Spain nor to Italy and these are the two countries that I'm dying to see. Sometimes I wish I were embarking on this journey with someone. A friend perhaps, or an extra-special someone. But I'm going solo and I've made up my mind to enjoy the solitude, to make new friends and to embrace new experiences. Life's too short to be unhappy. I don't want to say, "If only I had...," when I'm 80. And I figure I'll learn to pack a tighter suitcase!
The disturbing dream I had was about someone betraying me, lying to me. The person in question wore the face of someone who was once very important to me but had the personality of another who is very important to me. Dreams are a reflection of the self and are in no way a predictor of current or future events (in most cases anyway), so what this represents is my suspicions about a particular person, relationship or situation. If this is founded and I have evidence, this situation will get filed away under "baggage - for future use." And if this is an unfounded fear, it just means that I have take something out of my past - emotional baggage - and connected it to the current situation.
i think no one grows up with absolutely no baggage. I think the fallen world in which we live is so decayed that no matter how pristine our attempts are are, we inevitably become tainted souls. Perhaps this is the cross we carry; each of a different shape and size, that we have to work through in our lifetime.
Posted by Kay at 3:43 AM